I looked for you everywhere. I dint find you. But I consoled myself. A hope you may call it. Sometimes it faced stampede, sometimes broke like the precious glass. I dint mind wiping the tears. I wore a bandage on my heart to keep it intact. I faked a smile.

Then you appeared slow like a turtle but finally. I took you in my arms, in my heart. I was happy.

You taught me amazing things- Learnt to be patient when you stood me up for hours, smile and cry at the same time, the excitement I got making you smile, pride stood up when we walked hand in hand and a different aroma of the usual rose I had smelt before.

But you never said there was forever. True there wasn’t one.

You turned your back and left. I waited for the rain to cry. Sad music surrounded me.

I am strong. I pretended. Then you walked pass by me. I got back to what I was, a cry baby.

I said I could live without you next to me. I saw your face. I wanted to hold you so tight never to leave you.

Hell guys! became my attitude. I remembered you. You made me forget my own words.

Was it the love I wanted to see in your eyes too much?

Time heals everything. I forget you. I live my life as though nothing happened.

Then walks in another turtle, I take him in my arms and my heart. How did I forget it was yet another turtle?

I cry again in the rain. Hear the same music. Drown myself in the same grief.

You all walk in and out of my life. My life as though a corridor and my heart just like the guest room adjacent to the corridor. But I say it now. I have had enough. I mean it more than I have meant it every time you all walked away. I am done crying, looks like my tear glands ran dry. Not a word to spare in my diary, for it is full. And this is what I have to say to you all:

Don’t tell me to look back at you, coz I won’t

Love would be what I feel for you, No! Coz I don’t.

Expect me to cry for you in the rain- forget it

Include you in my wishes and prayers-you expect too much

You turn around. You want me to follow you- I ain’t your shadow

You say I am ugly- look who’s talking

You come in my dreams? - Ever heard of nightmares?

Wait for you till eternity- I ain’t got much time

Cuddle around you when you push me away? – I ain’t your puppy

Put on the best smile around you- oopsie! I have cavities

Write poems for you? – Wordsworth died long time ago

Have a good life- hell sure I will!

[Note: For all those who faced the grief of unreturned love. For all those who cried in the rain. Just a reminder- HE IS NOT WORTH YOUR WOES]